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| Today I decided to leave the studyroom early, half part because most of my studyroom friends left early too, and half part because I wanted to watch Flashforward. No more late nights for me now, I have to make my body-clock return to normalcy again.
I think that this Tuesday is gonna be epic because I have never felt so reassured of God's faithfulness to me. A few weeks back I went for cell, and we talked about total surrender, and it dawned upon me that this must be what total surrender feels like: To be unafraid of failure, and feeling almost no anxiety towards the outcome. Because I know that He has planned out every step of my life even before I was born, and if I fail, I fail, if I pass, it will be because He has determined this course of my life. And I will accept it. Even if I cannot understand why, I will accept it because His ways are higher than my ways, so are His thoughts higher than mine. I came across an entry of someone I don't know personally (one of those blog-hops that turned into blog-stalks I must admit) and she reminded me of the parable of the 5 loaves and 2 fishes. My God is the Jehova Jireh who can take even my few loaves and fishes to multiply them a thousandfold, and His promises never fail to lift me up even in the darkest of days. I would much rather end this whole chunk off with something awe-inspiring, but the truth is... I have nothing lolz. Nothing but this picture I got off tumblr which is cute ttm despite my vile hate for all things that start with a B and end with a IRDS. The night that was once young is starting to age <-- ha ha @ the failed attempt at sounding philosophical.
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| This is for all the people who are still online despite having the rest of our lives determined in less than 48 hours time (or 24 if your paper starts tomorrow)
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| On Faith:
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| Now my mom, my dad, and my sister own iPhones. I think this is an obvious case of phone discrimination! Fret not dear Samsung, though you are the Other (Othello moment whoa whoa), you have a sexy back: red beams when they catch the sunlight. And that, is better than the back of an iPhone that is so scratch-able it should be termed scratch-prove. Erm, pun fail.
I have 23 days left till freedom. I refuse to do the whole countdown till the As cause honestly, no one cares. Or rather, everyone's doing it and it makes me feel sick. Long night ahead with the studyroom friends. Must not sucuumb to peer pressure when it comes to ordering Macs!
+ I have new school shoes. I know right? 3 weeks after school ended then I get new shoes. Whaddup daddy? | | |
| Apologies:
I'm sorry if I'm not having proper conversations with people. I'm sorry if I'm deliberately missing your birthday celebration even though you are my friend. I'm sorry if I skipped cell group for a week. I'm sorry that I haven't spoken to my parents since 6:00am on Friday. I'm sorry that I didn't thank my teachers for the past 3 years.
I just feel like I should disappear for awhile. No, don't get me wrong, I am not suicidal. I just don't feel very interactive nowadays. This is what it does to you, it makes you highly unbearable to be around with, and it gives you a big fat nasty zit on your cheek. Godzitlla in its full glory. Well well well. My life is well. | | |
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